Sometimes I think back to some moments of my life and feel like such a loser. I remember how everything was going good and with just one phrase it turned bad. What angers me the most is how much of myself I put into it. And even when I was giving my all, I still wasn’t good enough but that’s the past and that is that. Every now and then I tend look back briefly.
In the middle of what started off as a midnight snack buts has quickly turned into feast. Tonight I don’t have a stomach. Just a black hole and no matter how much I eat, I’ll still want more. Feed me.
For some reason I feel so sad. Don’t why, I just am. I’m gonna crawl into bed with my heart in a loop and spend to night crying while reading sympathetic words from Mother Goose.
Spent my day at 816’s band practice and from what I heard you guise should be expecting big things from them. Those guys are divine.
Oh - so what’s it gonna take?
Oh! You’re gonna make your break
Just hold on, hold on!"
- a lyric from the song The Break
Today was one of those days that comes like a slap. Yesterday felt like a dream, today dragged me back, out of my delusion that felt so sweet back into my cell called reality.
Nothing cheers a boy up quite like a zombie film.
Queen of the Damned was pretty rad. It sort of reminded me of Twilight a bit, not the full movie but the relationship between Lestat & Jesse was similar to Bella & Edward’s, especially that whole thing where the female is dying for a lonely vampire to change her, but it holds it’s own though. Its a good movie.
Next up “Dawn of the Dead”
Happy Halloween Guise
I’m not really doing much today. I’ll probably just torture myself with horror films and attempt to finish my English essay. I was suppose to go to the parade in the Village but I’m not really in the mood, plus I have no costume. Truthfully all I wanna do is talk to my dad, haven’t spoken to him in a week. I have so much to tell him but he won’t call. I guess this is the price you pay when loving someone who has 10 years to life..
Man this is such a downer. Please don’t read. Have a fun, safe Halloween everyone.
“Suck” is an understatement. This is torture. I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. It’s all NYC and it whiplash weather fault.
I JUST WANNA BE BETTER. *Chris Crocker voice*
Mucus, Y U NO LEAVE MY RESPIRATORY SYSTEM ALONE?
According to my BMI results I’m 11 pounds overweight. How could this be? I
feel felt so sexy….. =/
Just found out one of my closest friends moved to New Jersey this morning and left me here alone with nothing, not even a goodbye. My heart is filled with nothing but sorrow and fury at this point and my tears are starting to flood over my eye lashes. Maybe if he text me or called it wouldn’t hurt me as much but he didn’t so tonight I’ll cry the night away in his sweater he gave me last time we hung-out….Goodnight Tumblr…
Don’t get me wrong I love when my brothers come to visit but the mess they leave is just to much and I’m too tried and sick to clean up right now. So tonight I sleep in filth, tucked under covers with a bottle of NyQuil at least Aladdin’s on.